If you have ever stepped into Being present, you want more.
"In the midst of beings as a whole an open place occurs. There is a clearing, a lighting… Only this clearing grants and guarantees to us humans a passage to those beings that we ourselves are not, and access to the being that we ourselves are." - Martin Heidegger
How do we keep the feeling of Being? How do I stay with the feeling? You can live in the question. Once you've found the key, you will lose it, and finding it again is not where it was the last time, except not always. Any belief in hard, in random, every Belief is a resistance, a denial of what is possible. When you are in the feeling, "be with 'it' as long as possible" ends it. Noticing a 'mistake' ends flow every time! It could be like a muscle. The more you use it, the stronger she becomes and the more willing she is to stay open.
As an avid reader, when I enjoy a book by an author, I want more of them. I especially am attracted to the aside, the middle of the paragraph point of reference, that poignantly attaches everything into one. At age 14, in one of Gerald Vann's books, in the forward [one of the best places to find insights], he mentioned a group of people over the last 3-4 millennia who only had one thing in common. They were all "notoriously happy."
A current point in a long-running inquiry is looking at the juxtaposition of happy and kind. Having [comes after do] one without the other seems possible. I noticed that when something kicked me out of my 'happy space,' I was not actually being happy. I was sucking on the space, charging up the battery to do happy, kindness, or whatever. I keep discovering the ego slipping in to take charge. How do I know it's the ego?
A meme flashed:
"It takes grace to remain kind in cruel situations." - Rupi Kaur.
Is it Grace who opens the clearing? I, not the observer, continue attempting to DO it all alone. Doing without being is ego. The ego has no connection or ability to function above the minimum when 'Grace' is not directing. Have I been looking for "being now" in all the wrong places?
A long time ago, I broke my 'to-do' list into three different lists. Today's List gets done today, or it is NOT on the list. It goes on the For Later List if I fail to complete it within a day or two. The For Later list is where tasks get broken into small enough pieces with enough inspiration to go on today's list. If it sits on the For Later List longer than 30 days, it goes on the One Day Someday List, where dreams and future projects live and sudden inspirations I would forget otherwise. This method increased being in NOW daily. Unless created newly, however, it becomes more do.
Now is the present moment. It is a continuous succession of instantaneous moments of no duration. It is the exact moment happening now. Daydreaming, attempting to define a future, or lounging in any memories keep me out of now. There is no past except as ill-defined in memories, mine and collective. The future beyond now is seldom accurate.
If all there is, is now and the past is ill-defined memories, the present moment is the only reality that exists. What has us ignore it? Our memories of the past are subjective and influenced by our perceptions, biases, and emotions. My memories' meanings keep changing. The only thing we can experience and know with certainty is the present moment. This perspective is associated with the philosophy of presentism, which holds that only the present moment is real and that the past and future are mere illusions.
Presentism and existentialism have a similar emphasis on the present moment and one's subjective experience of existence. Both philosophies reject the idea of objective, absolute truths and instead focus on one's subjective experience of reality.
The truth has a million faces, but there is only one truth. - Hermann Hesse
Existentialism emphasizes one's freedom and responsibility to create meaning in one's life rather than relying on external sources of meaning. Similarly, presentism emphasizes the importance of living in the present moment and experiencing life entirely rather than being preoccupied with the past or future. Presentism connects to the Truthmaker Theory and editing ego. An edited ego is as good as one unedited.
Presentism is primarily a metaphysical view of time, while existentialism is a broader philosophical movement that encompasses a range of topics, including ethics, freedom, and the human condition. The overlap between the two philosophies suggests no direct correlation or correspondence.
In my research on purposefully practicing procrastination, I saw the connection and symbiotic beauty of happiness and kindness. When Being notoriously happy, kindness flows naturally. Some of us are one without the other, and some, like me, can be knocked out of my "happy space" for no reason, which I turn into an excuse for upset. I was not being happy; I was doing happiness, and the two are in different worlds.
"We make a space inside ourselves, so that being can speak." - Martin Heidegger.
Today, I see that "Now' is our natural way to be. I thought [hint] it was somewhere to get to. I've trained to 'think' I am in now, and you cannot think your way to now/presence. Any upset that occurs means I'm not being present in now. In Now, I AM open to agreements instead of letting myself go hypnotized by agreements going along to get along. There is no 'hurry' in now being present. Time slows to its natural pace. Practicing purposeful procrastination is possible only in now. When I notice 3D, I Am in now. When I realize [different from notice] life has gone 2D, I may move-in to 3D or be 2D longer. And time slows down only in 3D. Remarkable!
"Within us there is someone who knows everything, wills everything, does everything better than we ourselves." - Hermann Hesse.